Church of Kink

For it is better to live a life of pain & pleasure , than to not of lived at all. Chose I not the road of Chaste Redemption. Nor have I sinned, though in your eyes it might seem to be so...Ti's not a sin to bare ones flesh, as others bare their soul's. Too each their own form of sacrifice in service to your conscience. I chose to worship the mind and body, in the Church of Kink, and do not begrudge you your right to seek repentance for that which is un pure in you in your eyes, and so you should not begrudge me redemption through kink....Thus I claim proudly a member be, of the "Church of Kink"

Social Indifferance

The following is a recent news story from the BBC A goth who leads his girlfriend around with a dog lead and collar was stopped from getting on a bus amid fears for passenger safety, a bus firm confirmed. Dani Graves, 25, and his fiancee Tasha Maltby, 19, of Dewsbury, West Yorks, claim they have been discriminated against by bus firm Arriva Yorkshire. The black-clad couple said they had been told to leave one bus and prevented from boarding another. The bus firm said safety came first, but it was investigating the complaint. Mr Graves told BBC Look North: "We're used to strange looks, we're used to comments. "But we didn't expect it from someone like that. They're providing a public service. We had our bus passes, we did everything that you are supposed to do to get on a bus." Miss Maltby said she came up with the idea to wear a dog lead, and said previous boyfriends had called her a "weirdo" when she suggested it. She's very animal like, she's kind of like a pet, as well as a partner Dani Graves The couple said they "loved each other to pieces" and the use of the lead was a "sign of trust". Mr Graves said: "She's very animal like, she's kind of like a pet, as well as a partner." He said he "does everything" for his girlfriend, including laying out clothes for her, feeding her and cleaning their house. He said: "You wouldn't expect your cat or dog to do the washing up or cleaning round the house." Firm apology Bus operator Arriva claimed other passengers could be put at risk if the bus braked sharply. Operations director for Arriva Yorkshire, Paul Adcock, said: "Arriva takes any allegation of discrimination very seriously and have interviewed the driver regarding Mr Graves' claims. "Our primary concern is passenger safety and while the couple are very welcome to travel on our buses, we are asking that Miss Maltby remove her dog lead before boarding the bus. "It could be dangerous for the couple and other passengers if a driver had to brake sharply while Miss Maltby was wearing the lead." The company said it was writing to Mr Graves "to apologise for any distress caused by the way this matter was handled". Perhaps the driver needs to be better trained on how to brake properly , and not cause passengers undue harm...I do not think it had any bearing on anything other than the fact that the driver is ignorant...when will the world grow up and learn to prevent such social injustice?

Responsibility

Ok the vacation is over!!! Should you(!) be held directly resposible for your own actions, or in actions as the case may also be?? Is it better to observe and let others with your own point of view , take the lead and steer ? Or is it time to be responsible and accountable for you and those whom are dependant upon your valued contribution to society, community, & life... Well no answers are to be found here at this time , because the truth be told, only you! have the questions to your answers, as only i have the answers to my questions.. I have taken responsiblity for being responsible. Back again to Rant about any and every thing , "Here I am!!" take it or leave it!

Its almost over

Well Here I am again, "Laughs" ..So you did miss my ranting? .. or is it that you are just surviving the Dictatorship as I am..

But Alas its almost over 1 lone year and this administration will be ousted and we can begin a new... Some one else can either fix or try to screw this country up more than Bush has.. I doubt personally they can do worse, so I can but be positive! that we will get better with time...

New Year

OK new year same ole crap? well not exactly , the end of last year was both joyous and sad.. A wedding, and sadly the death of a child have jaded this Sadists view. While perpetuating a deep introspective of the past 48 years , and what few may be remaining to accomplish something, anything actually...On a good note the local community needed a shot to revive it , so a new group was started , and my involvement in UPEX has passed for now, (it too may be revived someday) ..The new group is UALL , no its not a rebel redneck group, laughs it stands for "Utah Alternative Lifestyles" So toast to the new year and if you made resolutions ( sorry)!

Memorial Day

A day of memories. Time to reflect on the good and sometimes dwell on the sad or bad times of our lives. A day to remember those we have lost, or wished we had known better..But for me Memorial day is a time to reflect on all I have left to accomplish before I become someone's memory.. Time to ponder , my own importance, and contribution to the world... Still I remember those before me who have showed me the things that compose my wisdom..Made me what I am ...Who I am!

Beacon

Here I stand in the dark a beacon of light to no one in particular. Silence surrounds me ,with deafening indifference to those who are effected by my quirky semblance of knowledge and wisdom. Possessing little more than the accumulated experiences of my own strangely evolved life. I pass forth but this small kernel of fact. We each and everyone are that , one whom is such a beacon for those whom need us most, we are the teachers of nothing new, except viewed through our own experiences, learning from each other , from those who before us learned just as we do, as those we teach will!! Let us begin by admitting, we only have those answers, to the questions, as they have been asked so far. This said. What is your question of me? If I teach will you learn? And will you teach me what I as yet have not learned? Our path is clearly lit by the Beacon. But what Beacon and which path should be chosen?

Purity is over rated

Your Ultimate Purity Score Is...
Category	Your Score	Average
Self-Lovin'	10% I wouldn't shake hands, if I were you	65%
Shamelessness	26.2% Puts 'em on the glass	79.1%
Sex Drive	15.8% Humps fire hydrants when nobody's looking	77.5%
Straightness	0% Knows the other body type like a map	44.3%
Gayness	94.6% Repressed, are we?	83.9%
Fucking Sick	46% Don't look in the basement	90.1%
You are 33.25% pure Average Score: 72.6%
Take The Ultimate Purity Test and see how you match up!

Broken Silence

It has been previously stated how holidays are not really the best time of year for some of us. This one has been more enjoyable than many others, even in the face of all the crap from current events..

Laughs

You thought I was silenced? no more ranting? Oh not likely...Take for instance the dam fact that I have not posted in awhile because I am kept too busy to dispence my views on all the crap going on in the world ... much less at work or , in daily life...The only good thing going on of late is fact that we only have 3 years left of this g`dam Dictator and then we can put some other moron in office to ruin it all over again!!!

Confidence

Just when your completly sure you know, life reaches around behind you and bites your ass. Hello this is your wake up call, all of you who were fully confident that the supreme dictator we now have were going to lead us to the promised land... Well your promised land is poverty , over taxed, lower wages..Increase in personal crimes, identity theft, debt....Welcome to the new world order, america land of the free ( if your rich enough), land of liberty (if your lucky enough to survive)..(or not gay)... Home of the moral right...

Unexpected Changes

So now I'm a daddy! well perhaps not in the sense that imediantly comes to mind... I have basically adopted into my life a daughter of sorts... Its one of those Daddy / little girl relationships. With a 22 year old college student.. Strangly unbelievable is the fact that she is basically, younger yet slightly similar to the girl I already have... Firery Redheads... bratty, intellegent, opinionated, loveable.... For all thier similarities , thier differences make each unique and special to me... OH yes if it was not already common knowledge I am Poly!!!....or is it poly-amorus ??

Without going into details, and considering the dynamics of those we live around, its hardly surprizing . Yes others visiting this blog may be conflicted about a Poly-Sadist, laughs..

Life takes strange unexpected changes, and our intertwined happiness makes perhaps strange "bed fellows" , where exactally did this term originate? Any way?

I am of the conclusion that we have to take our happiness any way we can, while we can. Because the way the worlds going, and the cost of living rising. Single is out of the question, and two can just survive , but the way of the future is in the multitude, shared experiences, expenses, and dwellings, many lives as one!

Lewd & Lascivious

Why is this such a big deal in Utah? Well it is because of the lack of separation between church and state..Any who tell you the church does not influence how people live here , is either blind , a fool , or ignorant... Its true is exists this is a police state, the LDS church polices all our lives , for good and mostly bad to our determinant, Utah "A pretty Great place to live." No lube just bend over and take it like a Man... Welcome to Zion! Meaning of LEWD Pronunciation: lood WordNet Dictionary Definition: [adj] suggestive of or tending to moral looseness; "lewd whisperings of a dirty old man"; "an indecent gesture"; "obscene telephone calls"; "salacious limericks" [adj] driven by lust; preoccupied with or exhibiting lustful desires; "libidinous orgies" Sponsored Links: Synonyms: dirty, lascivious, libidinous, lustful, obscene, salacious, sexy Webster's 1913 Dictionary Definition: \Lewd\ (l[=u]d), a. [Compar. {Lewder} (-[~e]r); superl. {Lewdest}.] [{OE}. lewed, lewd, lay, ignorant, vile, AS. l[=ae]wed laical, belonging to the laity.] 1. Not clerical; laic; laical; hence, unlearned; simple. [Obs.] For if a priest be foul, on whom we trust, No wonder is a lewed man to rust. --Chaucer. So these great clerks their little wisdom show To mock the lewd, as learned in this as they. --Sir. J. Davies. 2. Belonging to the lower classes, or the rabble; idle and lawless; bad; vicious. [Archaic] --Chaucer. But the Jews, which believed not, . . . Took unto them certain lewd fellows of the baser sort, . . . and assaulted the house of Jason. --Acts xvii. 5. Too lewd to work, and ready for any kind of mischief. --Southey. 3. Given to the promiscuous indulgence of lust; dissolute; lustful; libidinous. --Dryden. 4. Suiting, or proceeding from, lustfulness; involving unlawful sexual desire; as, lewd thoughts, conduct, or language. Syn: Lustful; libidinous; licentious; profligate; dissolute; sensual; unchaste; impure; lascivious; lecherous; rakish; debauched. -- {Lewd"ly}, adv. -- {Lewd"ness}, n. Thesaurus Terms Related Terms: animal, aphrodisiomaniacal, bawdy, blue, carnal, clitoromaniacal, coarse, concupiscent, crude, debauched, dirty, dissolute, erotic, eroticomaniacal, erotomaniacal, fast, Fescennine, filthy, fleshly, foul, foul-mouthed, foul-spoken, foul-tongued, fulsome, goatish, gross, gynecomaniacal, hircine, horny, hot, hysteromaniacal, improper, impure, incontinent, indecent, indelicate, ithyphallic, lascivious, lecherous, libertine, libidinous, licentious, lickerish, lubricious, lubricous, lurid, lustful, nasty, nymphomaniacal, obscene, offensive, pornographic, priapic, prurient, Rabelaisian, randy, raunchy, raw, ribald, rude, ruttish, salacious, satyric, satyrical, scurrile, scurrilous, sensual, sexual, sexy, smoking-room, smutty, suggestive, sultry, unchaste, unclean, unprintable, unrepeatable, unvirtuous, vile, wild Meaning of LASCIVIOUS Pronunciation: lu'siveeus WordNet Dictionary Definition: [adj] driven by lust; preoccupied with or exhibiting lustful desires; "libidinous orgies" Sponsored Links: Synonyms: lewd, libidinous, lustful, sexy Webster's 1913 Dictionary Definition: \Las*civ"i*ous\, a. [L. lascivia wantonness, fr. lascivus wanton; cf. Gr. (?) lecherous, (?) to wish, Skr. lash to desire.] 1. Wanton; lewd; lustful; as, lascivious men; lascivious desires. --Milton. 2. Tending to produce voluptuous or lewd emotions. He capers nimbly in a lady's chamber To the lascivious pleasing of a lute. --Shak. -- {Las*civ"i*ous*ly}, adv. -- {Las*civ"i*ous*ness}, n. Thesaurus Terms Related Terms: amative, amatory, amorous, animal, aphrodisiomaniacal, appetitive, ardent, bawdy, blue, carnal, clitoromaniacal, coarse, concupiscent, Cyprian, debauched, desiderative, desireful, desiring, desirous, dirty, eager, ejaculatory, erotic, eroticomaniacal, erotomaniacal, fast, Fescennine, filthy, fleshly, goatish, gross, gynecomaniacal, hircine, hoping, hormic, horny, hot, hot-blooded, hysteromaniacal, impassioned, incontinent, indecent, itching, ithyphallic, lecherous, lewd, libertine, libidinal, libidinous, licentious, lickerish, loverlike, loverly, lubricious, lubricous, lurid, lustful, needing, nymphomaniacal, obscene, offensive, optative, orgasmic, orgastic, passionate, pornographic, priapic, prurient, randy, ribald, ruttish, salacious, satyric, sensual, sex-starved, sexual, sexy, smutty, steamy, tempted, unsatisfied, vile, wanting, wanton, wishing

Clearly Pissed

Moments of brilliance eclipsed only by the shear depths of my own insanity . Being a descendant of "religious Zealots" aka : (mormon's, or is it moron's ? Both are interchangeable) . And living in the chosen Promised land of Zion . I should not be surprised by the fact that they passed a law concerning internet pornography, or the transmission of "deemed" pornographic materials . Who the hell fucking deemed things I enjoy pornographic? If it turns me or my friends on , we are adult's, what dam business is it , of government , or Religion to interject into our lives their dam screwed morals?? I don't share their fetish of bible reading, and don't condemn, nor condone the forcing of that, or any fetish on any other...Get off your lazy asses and get involved personally into your (too many) children's lives and regulate to your heart's content. But stay the hell out of my life and let me enjoy my simple pleasures... Keep your dam laws for controlling your kids lives at home and not part of Adults lives .. Grow up People and raise moral individuals instead of imposing "your"moral's on the rest of us!!!!

No I have not

No I have not forgot about this, nor am I void any rants , its just that with so much going on . The rants just pile up , where to begin now is the question that eludes answering...The world has gone to hell just as predicted should the evil dictator make it back into office.. As his group rapes and pillages the economy and our integrity, young adults die for a cause not ever defined, giving their lives in service for a country loved , that will show them no love should they survive to an old age... Then again to be forgotten.. The rich shall inherit the earth because the are placing the poor further into poverty and despair, making life a hopeless venture in ultimate futility! Welcome to America we took your poor , your hungry , those with a dream to succeed to a better life , and gave them nothing but government repression , bad health care, crime , and a life of disparity...

Lost in thought

I started this rant back on the 22nd of Jan in the year 2005.. Feb 9th and nothing definite yet has come to make its way here , from the many thoughts , not one stands out! Much like winter one day its here and the next its spring like weather.. fading in and out hints of an idea , a thought not yet formed rises out of the blue only to vanish un realized... Hence tonite Feb 11 and still.... Valentines day soon approaching , imagine that ....Feb 16 , the year progresses on . The world decays further into the dark ages again. The resent flack over the exchange of same sex valentines. By kids, a group of individuals innocent of sexual preference... Being corrupted with ideas by the ignorant religious fanatics..here it is Feb 22 and still a blank slate ... Time to move on and return a new..

Twinkie Filling

Once life sucks , no matter what you do or what happens , it has to get better for someone. At sometime, not wholly of your choosing, once you actually find bottom where else is there to go? Know what , once you find the answers, All that is left are questions, without answers... Life

Revelations

Resolutions , little promises made of accomplishing things you never intend to do.. Every one makes them but alas, few if any ever achieve them.. Instead we should call them "New Years Revelations"... Little revelations of things we wished we could achieve but realize , we are not yet capable of...Time to be truthful with ourselves , because we are not fooling any one else ! Perhaps ourselves . This year my revelations I set to a higher standard . I will achieve a small fortune and become semi famous for what I have yet to discover... I will see all my friends with in the community achieve all their goals , and full fill their greatest desires.... I will get a grey pony ! ( well that's another story)... But what I most wish is that someone some where has a "Happy New Year".... I'll get back to you on this one ...

Struck Between Holidays

Twas three days after Christmas and all through out the house not a creature was stirring it was as quiet as a mouse. When suddenly did I hear a racket loud and clear , a hacking and coughing sounds that filled the whole air... I rose to see what's the matter , to discover without shock..That cold and flu season had finally struck... And loved ones ( well my girl any way), had surcummed to the fate.. When weather turns cold and Holiday Cheer is rampant..It's this time of year , comes the illness , something which we all fear... So HO HO HO it's the Holidays again , and with all those presents of surprise, came a bonus gift too!!!! Happy Holidays to all and a shelf of Thera-Flu ....(smile)..

Do I hate Christmas??

until last Christmas every one since 1983 , has been spent alone, on Christmas morning.... There are many reasons to hate Christmas, and mostly its a sad time , both depressive and introspective for me ... Hate is such a strong over bearing word, there have not been as many good Christmas days in my life. Perhaps that is why , I find it hard to appear happy ... Or to pretend I love the day... But NO! I don't hate it . I just miss so much.... During this time of year